As she lay in bed she could feel her body & mind changing, after the last 48 hours she desperately needed this reprieve. It wasn’t that she wasn’t used to her emotions overwhelming her, she just hated the numbness they brought with them.
She often just let this take over, let is the wrong word, she often felt like she had no control over this numbness taking over her, & she hated it, whenever this happened she just walked away from relationships, it was too much.
This time things were different, her partner had taken the time to read about & learn how numbness can be sent packing.
No one else, including herself had ever even given this any time, no one bothered to understand her mental health, but this one, she did, & it changed everything.
There was a way to stop the numbness taking over, & she was not alone, to know so many others struggled with this made her feel more normal, more understood.
This time when her emotions started to take over she didn’t have to fight the numbness, after fighting it several times her mind knew what to do. It was not something she even really had to think about.
Lying in bed the sense of relief is huge, oh she knows there will be times she has to fight it, but not this time.
The love she has for her partner is filling her heart, not the emptiness she is used to after some bad arguments. She wants to cuddle her partner let her know she loves her.
This is new, this is how it should be she thought. She knows she is lucky, she knows this is a moment to remember.